I am a terribly jumbled up writer and I'm okay with that

Hi!

I had a hard time staying asleep this morning. I don't know when I went to bed, but it surely wasn't early enough for me to be as wide awake as I am right now. I'm worried about how I'll hold over for the rest of the day.

I want to start journaling like this more! I wish I could actually do it in a cute notebook with my nice pens, but my wrists are too weak to handwrite more than I actually need to. Here will do and I'll make everything cute as a button.

Last night I made the incredibly difficult decision of not seeing Sarah this winter. This will be the first time in almost three years we haven't seen each other during a vacation. Seeing her is the one, solid thing that keeps me pushing forward through school and stress, and making the decision to shoot that down devastated me. But it was the most financially responsible decision in every way, and it had to be made. I'm an adult and sometimes I have to forgo things I want and need if it means being a happier, healthier, and better person! And I have to keep that in mind right now, because this is one of those times. I called Tyler amidst my overwhelming sadness and we ended up arranging for him to take the Amtrak down here for a week in December. So, at the very least, I have something to look forward to. I see him even less often than I see Sarah despite him just living eight hours away. He hasn't been to my house in centuries, and I'm excited. He said he'll bring "Christmas gifts and the ultimate care package" and it means the world to me. He always knows exactly how to respond to my sadness. And the best part is that it only costs about $70. To someone like me who pays $500 biannnually for trips, that's chump change! And it's awesome. I'm excited to see him. And I'm excited to be making this difficult but good decision about seeing Sarah. We'll have much more money and wiggle room in the summer now. One thing that really cheered me up last night is that we talked about things we could do when she's here in the summer. It's gonna be great and things are gonna be just fine.

After this weekend, I think the rest of my semester is gonna be smooth sailing. I'm excited. I have a paper to write this weekend and I'm hoping to section it off into 1,000 words per day on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I can stretch it off into Monday, and even Tuesday if I need to as well, so it'll work out great! I ended up getting really sick last week, which was the week I was planning on doing this paper, and I ended up pushing it aside for the sake of recovering. But, of course, I'm still stick now, so what difference does it make? (´ー｀) I'm really looking forward to getting this done. The due date for this paper was pushed back!!! :'''-) I'm so glad. Now I can relax and play Fantasy Life this weekend without a care in the world. I love being able to feel the weight lift from my shoulders. This semester has been killing me, and next semester is, hopefully, gonna be a lot more relaxed than this one. I think I'm gonna aim for a smaller schedule. A full-time schedule of nothing but core classes was a mistake for me.

I'm talking to Katrina and I think I'm going to get Fantasy Life on Friday. Less stress trip-wise means more wiggle room money-wise and I was really looking forward to its launch! It looks like a great game. She's telling me about it now and I don't think I can resist it.

And I guess one more thing? I need to start eating more. Once a day isn't cutting it. I'm gonna eat now and try to eat again later today. Even just two meals is better than one.

♡ Summer 2014 with Sarah Image Dump! ♡

Some choice pictures from my phone! :-) Having a phone with a good camera is a great thing. I'm gonna miss her so much this winter.