Post-worst semester ever update

LIFE!!! has thrown me a lot of, well, not even curve balls. Just balls. I feel like I've been pelted with about five thousand baseballs and I am just now, a week after my last day of school, am able to dig myself out of the pile and be a person again.

The last few weeks of school were absolutely brutal. Papers, projects, late homework assignments and every possible inconvenience inbetween. The quantity of it all wasn't as terrible as the actual weight of the few things I had to do! And you know what? I pulled out with two As and two Bs. I won. I did it. I overcame the most ridiculous, disgusting, debilitating semester I've ever put myself through in my entire academic career. I know that in hindsight I could have handled lots of things a lot better than I did, but I am always in a haze and very much lost from my better brain when I'm in school, so I think I managed pretty well! I got a B in stats. :'-) As far as I know, I'll never have to take another math class again! I think I mentioned this before, but I'm only taking two classes next semester for a much needed semester of self-focus and improvement. I feel like it's important to treasure my youthful freedom while I can, and two classes twice a week sounds like an absolute dream. I can see and feel just how much better I've become as a person in the small amount of time I've had these past four months, so I bet!! with all this time I'll have this coming semester!!! I'll be so much better! :-) I want to read books, play games, write stories, go for walks, and work my mind in ways that don't flow with an educational system, and help myself out in the best possible way. It's hard for me to keep my word on things like this when the time comes around, with my constant fatigue and low energy and all, but I wanna do my best anyhow. I think having less classes will help that out a lot! And I'm really excited. I genuinely look forward to having more time to myself. I love me.

I picked Tyler up from the train station this afternoon!!! He's gonna be staying here till Sunday morning and I'm so happy to have him here. I genuinely love his company. He got me a Yoshi PDP controller and a Super Nintendo for Christmas!!!





I couldn't ask for better gifts. The PDP controller plugs into a Wiimote rather than the console, so it's compatible with WAY more games than a regular GameCube controller would be!!! I can play it with the beautiful used copy of Kirby's Dream Collection I got!!! Did I mention I got that? With the manual and soundtrack and a beautiful, impeccable box?



It's the best! It has six N64-and-older Kirby games all in one super cute disc. It's only compatible with the Wii Remote being held sideways, which is just awful. This is where the PDP controller comes in!!! It's so well-designed! The colors are stunning and the controls feel light and fluffy and the C-stick was made bigger for an easier grip! I'm so emotional over things like this. I'm glad that the gaming industry recognizes how amazing the GameCube controller was!

And the Super Nintendo...!!! I couldn't believe it when I saw it. I'm thinking about painting it since it's one of those Super Nintendos that got mega yellow over time! It's in great shape, though, so I'm worried about ruining it with paint. No matter what I do, I'm so excited to have it! The Super Nintendo's always been one of my most favorite consoles and I've NEVER owned one. Super Mario World is my ultimate SNES title, and I immediately bought a copy of Mario Paint to go along with it so I'm PUMPED. I'm gonna relive my whole little childhood playing SNES at others' houses... in my own house!!! With my own SNES!!! I now officially own all of the Nintendo home consoles!!! Tyler always gets me the coolest gaming gifts!!!

I am really so tired. My body is tired but I feel like the stress is slowly seeping out of my skin and into the heavens where it all belongs. A week ago there was so much tension in my entire body that I could barely move beyond what was necessary! It's nice to be able to literally feel the tension leaving now. This winter break is shaping up to be just great. Christmas is looking great. I will need to touch on Christmas another time, when it's not 2:16 in the morning and I am not dead ass tired. I haven't been up a super long time but I definitely have been doing enough to knock me out! It's been a long day!

Everything is good! Stress levels are stable, I got my prescription refilled after not having medication for over a month, I have all these great video games to play, everything is good. In particular, everything is stable. I wish things could be this stable more often!